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Yesterday was day 2 of being back on the bike. I didn't ride for long, maybe 23 minutes, and not very far, but it was exhilarating. I starting jogging again too about two weeks ago. It took a lot to get moving, not just walking but moving faster. I didn't think I could jog again after being out-of-shape for so long. But I did it and my focus is to keep doing it, to increase in speed and distance.
It's an awful cycle. I let myself go for a few reasons, none of them good enough except maybe the sheer exhaustion I experienced after constant sleep deprivation with baby #3. That can make a person crazy! But I let myself go, I gained weight and kept gaining. I stopped moving. I started eating more. I stopped caring about my food choices. I started going to Starbucks twice a day to try and combat exhaustion. My mental state was impaired due to lack of sleep and self-care. Then one day, I looked in the mirror and was disgusted at the person who stared back at me. It made me feel ashamed and depressed, which only pushed me deeper into the unhealthy cycle I was in. My relationships suffered because of my mental state, my emotional state declined too. I avoided social situations because I felt I would be judged. I couldn't wear any of my clothes anyway.
So, now you know where I'm coming from. Each day should be celebrated as a triumph; each day that we take a step into the right direction, each day that we wake up alive! Celebrate every right decision you make, no matter how small, and soon you'll make a habit out of making the right decisions.
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