*kick* I think we all need a kick sometimes. Just remember that is what we are all here is give eachother a kick start every once and a while. You can do this!!! You have lost 50 pounds and that is amazing!!! Just keep going and this of how far you have already come. I know the dark and cold makes it hard ( I live in MD, just a stone throw away from WV), but stick with it!! I know you have it in you!