kingkeld's Notizen, 16 Feb 12

Ouch. Man, I did bad yesterday.

I'm not sure what was wrong with me, but I had INSANE cravings. I craved all the baddies from yesteryear and before the new Kingkeld appeared, and to some extend I caved in. Not as bad as I could have, but I caved in nonetheless.

The damage isn't severe - I simply didn't have a calorie deficit, but I would have liked it to not be so. The guilt of doing it is probably worse than the actual damage.

Today, I am determined to be back on track though. No need to linger in it - there will always be days like these - it's much more important to get back on track and do good.

What troubles me more is the fact that these days come a little more often than they used to. Inquisitive as I am, I wonder why this is. Am I simply slacking? Do I have too large of a calorie deficit and is my body telling me that I need to eat more? Is it simply me trying to find ways to justify cheating on my diet? I'm honestly not sure.

Maybe reaching goal has something to do with it. I mean, mentally I am finished with losing weight. Saturday I was at goal. Today I am not. I really want to be at goal weight ALL THE TIME. Refocus, Keld. Refocus.

Today I am determined (so far, anyways) to do good. I only gained 100 grams, which is more likely to simply be the fact that we had chili for dinner last night - it's good on the calories, but heavy in weight. This will of course push up the numbers on the scale this morning. Also, a larger portion of ice cream and other stuff weighs extra. I'm not really worried about the weigh-in. I'm much more concerned with that little evil demon sitting on my shoulder whispering in my ear. Does anyone have a demon swatter I can borrow? :)

So, today I have planned ALL my food. It's written in stone and IT WILL NOT CHANGE UNLESS IT'S CHANGING TO SOMETHING LOWER! This I need to do. I had a great breakfast, and I have an AWESOME and HUGE lunch to devour. I have snacks for my morning and afternoon, great dinner, and I have even prepared jell-o gelatin for dessert. What more could I possibly need?

If the fat demon comes to whisper, I can politely tell him to get lost. I have what I need, and if I crave anything I can take from the supply I have already entered.

I already did 30 minutes on my stationary bike this morning. Feeling bad about yesterday, I figured I should do this as top priority, so right after making breakfast for Wife and sending her off to work, I got on the bike. I figured I needed that more than journaling (and you guys know how important journaling is for me).

Damn, yesterday is haunting me. The more I write about it, think about it, the worse I feel about it. I mean, it could have gotten MUCH worse, there were plenty of things I did NOT do that I wanted to, but still.

Well, lesson learned - for now. I know there will always be days like yesterday - the trick for the future will be to either put it away or compensate for it. Right now, I'm not ready to compensate though. That'll have to be later.

Can we please un-discover chocolate? That would help me SO much. LOL!

Today is my longer day at work - 9 hours. I only have one interview, and one meeting. This will be my sit-down time, other than lunch and afternoon break. So that's about 2 hours total. The rest of the day I will make it a point to work standing up (as I usually do). It burns calories, and helps my posture.

Today, I am thankful for:
- A HARD decision to be back on track.
- A tiny weight gain (as opposed to a HUGE weight gain!).
- My stationary bike. It makes me feel that I am doing something.
- Almond flavored coffee. Almost as good as chocolate!

Happy Thursday, folks! Life is good!

80,4 kg Bisher verloren: 74,6 kg.    Still to go: 0 kg.    Diät befolgt: Schlecht.

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1824 kcal

Fett: 59,86g | Eiw: 85,77g | Kohlh: 234,67g.   Frühstück: nakkekam, Prunes Svesker uden sten, Egg, Rye Bread (Reduced Calorie), Loppefrøskaller. Mittagessen: Chili Con Carne with Beans Entree (Canned). Abendessen: fat free dressing, husk, Chicken Thigh, Mango Chutney, Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables, White Rice (Long-Grain, Cooked). Snacks/Sonstiges: licorice, Plums, bell pepper, Bananas, Pears, Jell-O Sugar Free Low Calorie Gelatin Snacks - Orange/Lemon-Lime. mehr...

3147 kcal

Bewegung: Radfahren (Langsam) - 18 Km/h - 30 Minuten, Schreibtischarbeit - 2 Stunden und 30 Minuten, Sitzen - 5 Stunden und 10 Minuten, Schlafen - 8 Stunden, Gehen (Mäßig) - 5 Km/h - 20 Minuten, Stehen - 7 Stunden und 30 Minuten. mehr...