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Day 74
So, I was thinking today . . . A year ago, I weighed more than 10 kg's more than I weight right now. The last time I was this weight, was about two years ago. And at that stage, I was still steadily gaining.
So, why do I still feel so fat? I mean, I know I have a long way to go, still. But, I feel emotionally more overweight now than I did then. I've heard of a book called "Loosing your pounds of pain." That is so true. The emotional baggage that we sit with, that we need to rid ourselves of, together with the physical weight, is rather alarming.
Perhaps that is why weight loss takes time. It's more than just the loss of physical matter. It's the loss of pain. It's facing the hurt of stigma's and stereotypes, and inferiority complexes, and abandonement issues. It's admitting those, and letting them free into the universe. It's embracing the changes we're making to ourselves. It's patting ourselves on the back for a job well done. And it's accepting and rejoying in the person we are becoming.
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