I've been losing weight, so that's good. I've never been small or average. My husband thinks I'm a bit nuts with how detailed I've become about what I shove into my face. I'm not sure he realizes just how lazy I was for so many years. Chips, I'll take them all. Brownies, I'll bake up a pan and eat it all. Gym membership? Of course, but I'll go sit in the parking lot to read and chain smoke. Overall, just REALLY healthy habits (insert eye-roll here). It's time to invest in me. A bit late in the game, but I'm not dead yet. So, why not? After losing enough weight to not scare myself in the mirror, the next goal is to win the lottery. Even if it's just 20 bucks just so I can say I won. Thanks for listening y'all. Glad I found you :)