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16 März 2019

Slow and steady. Days like today and yesterday were tough. I’ve been very emotional and food has been my comfort, in the past. It is great to say I prevailed, and didn’t give in! Does that mean I won’t find myself there again? Absolutely not. It does mean I feel just a touch empowered 😬.

I’m working on my personal anxiety....meaning in the past when DH tried Keto I put pressure on myself to make snacks and just trying to cater to him. I love him, but I’m not doing that this time. Doing that means eventually I lose sight of myself and my own health. Staying my course and he’s welcome to jump on the ship with me. I bought a bagel pan a few weeks ago (Tupperware party) and that came in. I NEED to get almond flour (the one thing I don’t have) to make these Keto bagels.

Last night he says he’s been low carb all day. I said well you’re probably going to start feeling like crap soon with Keto flu, and he says “I already am and I’m starving”. I make him hot broth with butter and he asked for another 😂. Yes, it’s good. I have hot tea at night when I feel like the old habit of snacking is upon me.

Time to get busy. I need to menu plan for next week so I can make my grocery list.

I need to mention NO HOT FLASHES LAST NIGHT!!!! It felt great to sleep all night!!!!!!

Have a great weekend FS warriors and be kind to yourselves!

Gewicht:	Bisher verloren:	Still to go:	Diät befolgt:
94,9 kg	17,6 kg	9,2 kg	Recht gut

(3 Kommentare) Verlust von 2,2 kg pro Woche

15 März 2019

No change in weight, but that is okay. Realizing that I have not gotten any exercise in two days and then yesterday I was so stressed. So I will take that and I had higher calories yesterday, but that beats emotional eating which is what I wanted to do. Hot tea to the rescue.

Here is a NSV - I found this body fat calculator that uses not only your weight but some measurements to calculate your BMI. According to this I am now in the acceptable range!! This is the address for anyone that wants to check it out: http://www.bmi-calculator.net/body-fat-calculator/#result Now to work on getting into the 'fit' BMI.

Okay last night was a bit painstaking. So DH has been having some back pains and the Dr said that is probably from kidney/bladder and his creatinine is up some (which I saw in the bloodwork) but it isn't that much elevated to freak me out about kidney disease. So they will do some more tests on that end. So last night he had a lot of moaning and sighing and groaning with the back. I know I am going to sound mean and uncaring, but his back didn't become that much more painful in the span of one day and the doctor telling him that it was probably his kidneys. However, after that conversation and the blood test results he is suddenly in so much more pain?? I am still mad. He had the nerve to say that he wasn't going to take insulin. What the hell?? He said that he told the Dr that and the Doc said that they would have an argument. I told him that he and I would have an argument, too, because he needs to get his BS under control. He had the nerve to say that he will change his eating habits. What??? I told him that he couldn't get his head wrapped around changing his lifestyle permanently. That last year it was 7.1 and he was told then if he didn't get it under control he would be put on insulin and he did not make any changes. He said well it wasn't this bad. What?!?!?! You knew you needed to change that it wasn't going to magically get better on its own!! OMG!!!!! He asked me why I thought he needed to be on insulin. I told him it was better than going blind or losing a foot. He can always make the decision to make a lifestyle change and if he truly does then they can take him off or readjust the meds. I am pissed!!!

Breathing not going to let it get me down. I will get some much needed exercise in today so I can release some of this stress and anger that I am carrying around right now. Well that is my plan even though he said he is coming home early today. That is okay maybe my good habits will rub off on him. One can always hope. :)

Y'all have a great day and weekend and remember to be kind to yourselves.

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14 März 2019

Didn't weigh this morning, but mostly because my morning was all out of sorts and I forgot before I started working on my water.

Yesterday was a wash exercise wise. I had an appointment that required me to leave right after work. I would have been home in time to get an a quick run and then cook dinner, before the EMT meeting....BUT I came up on a multiple vehicle accident and stopped to check everyone out until Fire and Ambulance arrived. There weren't any evident injuries but folks needed to get checked out and will be sore.

By the time I got home it was time to start dinner. I made Creamy Chicken with Artichokes and Sundried Tomatoes and it was so good. I have made this before and used coconut cream in place of the dairy. I also used what I had which was the jarred sundried tomatoes. It is so good and filling. The address for the recipe if you want to check it out: https://www.lemonblossoms.com/blog/chicken-with-artichokes-and-sundried-tomatoes-cream-sauce/

My SIL spent the night and my husband went to help her with a new salon she is opening. I headed to the meeting.

On another note, as some of you know my husband is Type 2 Diabetic and he chooses to manage (or mismanage) with medicine. I try not to sit in judgement of him. I cannot expect him to be like me...my family history is strong with T2D and I do not want to be on the meds. He has been on them, but still not managing. Yes, I make good keto meals at home, but he requires rice or mac and cheese with his. He is also prone to a couple glasses of milk, at night, and (non diet) sodas as well as making himself cookies and popcorn in the evening. It doesn't make it easy for me. Anyway, I am venting here really. He had his blood work and I knew his A1C would be high. He doesn't check his BS he has been tired more a lot and napping longer. And the A1C is 8.8!! I am not happy...I am really sad, but I am not his mother. I have a hard enough time managing my health. So he got the letter from the doctor that said in caps SUGAR IS TOO HIGH and to call for an appointment to discuss meds and possibly insulin...because his triglycerides are so much higher than last time...they have over doubled. Now diabetes and triglycerides are somewhat attached to a degree so I suppose I shouldn't be too shocked. He made the appointment today, for next week, and texts me (damn talk to text) "The won't take insulin". I do not know what he was saying. I text back 'What's that? The?' didn't get an answer. So I am stressed now are we going to have a blow up tonight because that is what I am feeling. Seriously if this man comes home and tells me that he is not going to take insulin I will fucking go off. It is a little too late for that now. Your A1C was 7.1 last year and the doctor told you then if you didn't get it under control you would be on insulin. You have chose not to manage it and now you need to take the meds or suffer other problems. Anyway, I will be going to this appointment with him. Also, I am sorry if this sounds mean...I have told him in the past that if he gets put on insulin from his poor choices that he best not expect me to give him his shot because he is perfectly capable. It would be different if he weren't capable of giving himself the shot, but that isn't the case. I am mad. I am disappointed. I am sad. I also KNOW that he has to manage his health his way, and I cannot expect everyone to want to manage their health through diet and exercise. I mean I have struggled for years, but maybe that is part of my being mad. I KEEP TRYING. I have struggled for years, but I have not given up on myself.

Sigh...anyway....not sure how long our company will be down today/this afternoon. However, if she leaves at a decent hour then I will go to the gym. If not then I guess I will have to work extra hard Friday and then both Saturday and Sunday.

It is easy to allow yourself not to go or to slip. I know...I have done that many times and that is how I sabotage myself. This is a lifestyle. There will be days that I have to change plans. Days that things come up. Days, like today, that I am stressed....mad, sad and disappointed AND scared for someone I love...it would be easy to go binge and emotionally eat. I want to today, but I am not. That will not solve anything.

End of vent/rant/whining. Please be kind to yourselves and never give up on YOU.

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12 März 2019

Whatever scale! We both know I ran hard and worked out hard yesterday. You are tool. Sometimes a tool to be used and sometimes just a 'TOOL'...hahaha.

Seriously, I did have a heavy carb day Saturday. It wasn't intentional; I thought the Mongolian Beef would be a good choice, and probably considering the options it was. However, it was high in carbs but that is okay. It is one day out of the rest of my life, and honestly there will be days like that. So it's all good.

This is a life style, and not a 'diet'. Be kind to yourselves! :)

Gewicht:	Bisher verloren:	Still to go:	Diät befolgt:
96,2 kg	16,3 kg	10,4 kg	Recht gut

Kommentar hinzufügen Zunahme von 1,1 kg pro Woche

11 März 2019

I know when I say "do you ever feel like all you did was eat all weekend" that most of you will know what I mean. That is how I feel. So back to it today and I am HAPPY to be back on a more normal trend. We went out to eat with friends Friday night and then Saturday my SIL came over, and subsequently spent the night. Then yesterday we were running around all day too with errands. I did have a beer yesterday, and it was SO GOOD. However, I can say that after having it I don't feel like I have been really missing out by not having a beer in several months....so that is good.

Friday my gym plans were foiled. I had to work late and my plan to run, then gym to row and circuit weights didn't come to fruition. In the past I just wouldn't have done anything. However, this time I changed gears and ran two miles. So that is a NSV! Saturday I got up and got a quick mile in before we went running around everywhere. Yesterday was a bust gym wise. Today I have a plan...BUT I am not going to put it here since last Friday my plan was screwed up...hahaha.

Anyway, I have a business trip to Georgia next month. It will be great to see everyone, but it will be the first time I have been home since my sweet Mama passed away. That will be hard, but at the same time my siblings have already had to get over that milestone and I know it is past time for me to have to get past it. I hope to try to get some gym time in or walking time in while I am there. However, with the 1-1/2 work commute (each way) and then seeing everyone (after work) I am not sure I will have much time. I will be staying in a Hotel two nights and I know I will be able to get my time in those nights. I will figure it out.

Time to get to the work day. Be kind to yourselves!

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