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You know that thing, when you go online searching for tips, advice, life-changing stories, and so many other things that can help you start a long process of losing weight. Well, I suppose we all had to go through this at some point, not knowing if it is gonna work for us, or if we are going to make it, or we are going to lock ourselves again in a world of depression because we quit or because it just didn't work for so many reasons. One of those tips, or we could say the advice I found on the internet, was not to weigh yourself because it just drags you down when you do not achieve the goals you promised yourself you would. So I tried, and then after getting six more kilos I can surely say it's complete stupidity and one of the worst pieces of advice ever. I got from 85 kilos to 91 in just a few months not even noticing it. My clothes were stretchy anyway, I was kind of "big" anyway, so I guess I just did not realize I put weight again. After months of not paying attention, I did weigh and I almost cried for a week, I was even more devastated, more depressed, and angrier at myself. I hated myself for being stupid enough to listen to another stupid thing found on the internet by the people who just had to write something different to get more attention. It's crazy, right? Then I decided to stop reading every single weight loss story, to look into myself more deeply to get information about why my body is responding the way it is. Why do I overeat? When do I seek comfort in food? What are the drivers of not taking care of myself? All the answers are not coming in a day or two, it is a long process of getting to know yourself, your deepest differences, and your hidden complexes. One of the discoveries I had about myself is that I am not socializing enough compared to a period when I had no problem with obesity. That was about 15 years ago when I moved to another country, a new job that had nothing to do with my bachelor's education, new people, and new culture I had to embrace. Nothing was all right, sometimes everything even looked like a Universe came down on me like I was the worst criminal ever. Slowly, day by day I was losing the connection with myself, and I was redrawing myself from society. Only necessary things, like supermarkets, pharmacies, and ctr. I had ups and downs in this period of 15 years, and when I look through the pictures, I realize that also my weight was oscillating with my social periods and my mental state. Last few years I am far away from being social, part of the reason is that along with work I was attending a postgraduate program at a University that was taking a lot of my time in a day. But what about other reasons? One is that I never managed to adapt fully to my new life in another country, I was so very different from the people and culture I was now surrounded, and I just stopped trying to make friends. Simultaneously, when I started getting weight I was feeling ashamed of myself and I had less and less will to socialize with people to avoid their comments about me getting fat. So, slowly, day by day I got into this situation where I am overweight, I rarely socialize, and I am depressed. I do not need a doctor to tell me that I have depression issues, I feel it and I recognize it. What I was trying to tell you, is that for now, I got to a conclusion about how two things among others contributed to my state today. Not weighting myself, believing in stupidity that "scale is my enemy", and second, I stopped socializing with people as I used to do before. The question is what am I going to do about it? Well, for start I will make the scale my friend again, and the second is that I will try to interact more with people I know. I did weight today after one week, and I did not lose any weight, but I am not disappointed because I know it is just a beginning of a very, very long process. I called one of my friends for a coffee on Wednesday at our favorite place in town. Its start. Day by day, let me see how will I do.
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90,7 kg
Bisher verloren: 0 kg.
Still to go: 22,7 kg.
Diät befolgt: Recht gut.
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1743 kcal
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Fett: 57,03g | Eiw: 36,38g | Kohlh: 278,00g.
Frühstück: Eggplant , Red Sweet Pepper, Macaroni, Spaghetti Sauce with Vegetables (Homemade-Style), Trader Joe's Hass Avocado, Bananas, Παπαδοπουλος Ψωμί Γερμανικού Τύπου Με Σίκαλη. Mittagessen: Fruit. Abendessen: Freshly Squeezed Orange Juice, Olive Oil , Παπαδοπουλος Ψωμί Γερμανικού Τύπου Με Σίκαλη . Snacks/Sonstiges: Olive Oil, Παπαδοπουλος Ψωμί Γερμανικού Τύπου Με Σίκαλη. mehr...
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Verlust von 0,4 kg pro Woche
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